I bet you’ve been so close. Seems as though you’ve read so much. thought so much. Saw enough. Experienced more.
Yet how could you be so close and not see? How could you even analyze this “thing” and not be moved in the same direction? How can this catalyst so strong not change your mind?
I wonder if you’ve ever actually gave Him a chance. If you’ve ever actually tried to stand with Him. All that it had to take me was either one prayer. one song. one thought. a pure moment. a person. a life.
I will go out. You make me want to wander. you make me want to see more. experience more. Why do you speak this way? What hinders that atmosphere that is at least present in people similar to you? Has God ever done anything to you that you hold back? What keeps you? What then moves you?
Your hunger for knowledge involves so much of who God is. what he is. Why he is. and yet not a single spark of admiration to the one who created your existence. Not a smile for the one who carefully made you and is loving you despite any possible issue.
You challenge me. I hate it. But I actually like it. since it pushes me to go further. Why does this you seem to lay down as just a “thing” mean drastically important to me? To us. I want to say you’re different. But I guess there’s always just gonna be two sides of the story. To Him is either all you are or its not enough then.
You kill me each time. Heat fires out of my ears like an angry bull. You boggle my brain. until i grit my teeth. But you also slow me down. You make me want to pray. You make me seek more. find more. know more. want more. I’m mentally challenged. and spiritually interested.
You know what.?/ for sure. Keep it up if you want to. I’ll be doing the same damn thing anyway.
