White as snow
I get so easily distracted. I think I may want to live on the mountains. then I won’t see the world. But I’d rather miss the whole world if Jesus is being barricaded. I don’t want to isolate. But I do want to keep my focus. Im not surprised of persecution. neither am I surprised of trials. But this struggle seems to be permanent. I dont want it. I dont want to think it. Or do it. Yet I do want it @ a certain moment. I like it. I think it. God just please cleanse my thoughts. Put them in prison lord. Burn them. and never again would they live in my head or desire to. Satan keeps reminding me and tempting,. distracting me of what I do not want to begin. This is so weird. But I know I’m still under God’s hands. since I’m reacting so drastically. These feelings are so annoying. and difficult. and inexplicable. I feel sorrow. and temptation. strong temptations. I hate this.
Lord, please change me completely. Take this away lord. I want you Jesus- alone.
“See what this godly sorrow has produced in [me]: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear [myself], what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done. ” 2Corinthians 7:11
